Hi, and welcome to SubSux.
Congratulations on 30 days!!!
As crazy as this sounds, it is normal to feel like you do after a month off. Sub wd's and PAWS can last a looooong time and often aren't linear. You might feel better for a few days, then hit a day where you go, "Crap,this feels like day 2 again. WTF?!" Freaking fabulous.
The good news? 30 days is a turning point for many people, when the really sucky days start to become the exception and energy begins to return.The sun probably won't shine out of your ass, but the good days/moments will start to outnumber the bad.
“Just cause you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town.” - George Carlin